Entering
this world is fascinating, living it is a lesson. The early years seem wondrous
with so many different and vivid colours, people, objects, sounds or as a
matter of fact, everything around us, captivates our new born vulnerable minds
and we feel tempted to touch everything with our senses for the world is as new
and irresistible to us as adulthood is to childhood. But little do we realize
that our growing acquaintance with our vicinity slowly distances us from
ourselves. Not that we never made any efforts to demystify our minds but
somehow those were always interrupted by feelings of failure on reaching some
seemingly incomprehensible dead ends. Too caught up with the outer world, our
search for ourselves could never make it to our priority list and we continue
to smile, frown, weep and laugh through our days. The simplicity of these
emotions is of course less guilt provoking and nevertheless easier to explain
to others than the secretly anticipated search within. But then again for how
long can we run from ourselves. Sooner or later we are met by that questioning
moment which can no longer be put aside. It refuses to rest and demands an
answer far from superficial. Our search away becomes our search towards
ourselves.
Now lets not be so
unreasonably excited, it’s no simple treasure hunt after all. And why not put
our carefulness aside too and put on some observing caps. Its our search, our
journey and the destination will be ours too. Then why be all melodramatically
alert, lets give in to ourselves and trust me the first thing we are
automatically going to do, surprisingly without any external instruction, is
that we’ll challenge ourselves. Yes we’ll challenge ourselves, that’s not just
the first step of the search but also the most rewarding single step for going
through a self imposed challenge makes us face ourselves more closely than
ever. It makes our soul naked for us to accept, embrace and befriend. If you’ve already challenged yourself, CONGRATULATIONS!!!,
you know yourself a little more already.
The most unbelievable part of
this step is that the challenges that we impose on ourselves are more difficult
than what life or other people would make us go through. We make ourselves go through the toughest because nobody else
knows our fears and nobody else wants to know why we fear what we fear. And
okay here’s a little secret, i might be breaking some universal law by giving
it away but ha! who cares about the universe and its so called laws when we
have something more important and complex such as ourselves to deal with. The
secret is that our biggest fear is us, we fear ourselves, we fear knowing what
we might be capable of, we fear knowing how intelligent we might be considering
we’ve been called dumb half our lives or vice versa, we fear knowing what we
could’ve done if we would’ve known ourselves a little earlier. Now that you know the secret, stop shying away from yourselves. Come
out from your body fit closet and step into the infinite you.
PS:
before you ask me what the next step of the search is, try the first. The
conclusion of it bestows upon you enough wisdom to know the second and so on ;)
